On second thought.

3 Doors Down – Kryptonite

Music NoteI took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do… Yeah

I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then
As long as you’ll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak but still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if not for me then you’d be dead
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeeaah!!

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
KryptoniteMusic Note

I remember hearing this song when I still lived back in Sugar Land. It’s amazing how quickly the years have gone by. And to think that just a few years ago, I was anxious about my move to Beijing. Look where I am now. This is exactly why I can’t afford to go back to the United States just to attend university at one of those UT schools. I’ve got to make something out of myself. All these years that I’ve spent outside of the United States have to go to some use.

I managed to get virtually no work done today. I did finish up my Math Analysis homework this morning. After that, I was supposed to study for Biology and Physics. But I didn’t.

I picked up last month’s issue of National Geographic and read through the whole thing while listening to music. I was reading through the articles on Africa and the economic, social situation that the peoples are in right now. It was a most depressing read, but there are some glimmers of hope. Hit a point regarding AIDs, and damn. That writing gets to you. When you’re reading what HIV-positive children said out in hopes that they would go on to live healthy lives, it’s amazing how much it moves you.

And then I noticed something strange. Bear in mind that pornography is illegal in Malaysia. National Geographic shows the human side of things, and isn’t afraid to display a little skin once in a while. It’s how the damn pygmies live right? They don’t need all those clothes, so why Photoshop the hell out of them? Yeah. It turns out that the magazines I have are censored. Somebody has the bleak job of leafing through each copy of the magazine distributed in this region, and blacking out anything potentially offensive with a black permenant marker. That’s just sad. If the image depicts something of human nature, why censor it?  Just embrace it.

I sent off the email in my “Memories” section this morning. Heh.

But in the end, I don’t know what to feel. 我不想忘掉。I was looking through my old emails and found ones from around Spring Break last year and lo and behold, it turns out that things were just fine back then. It’s funny because I really can’t remember a thing from last year, and there it is right in front of me. And now I just sit here and wonder, what has changed? Let’s go to 纽约。 It’s not all black and white. And I’ll do anything and everything I can for you.

Music NoteNow this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
Oh who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That’s what makes you beautiful
You’re all or not
I don’t need what you ain’t gotI’m torn in pieces
I’m blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I’m blind and waiting for you

I’m blind and waiting for you
I’m blind and waiting for youMusic Note

Guy HugGirl

2:07 AM Edit:

Just something cool that Alice showed me.  I gave it a shot. Hahaha!

Listening to:  3 Doors Down – Be Like That