THIMUN, Swimming.

I’m so lost right now. I don’t know what’s gotten into me because I was pretty damn sure I knew what I wanted to do just earlier. What in hell keeps happening to me? I’m so full of thoughts and I yet, I can’t think straight. I need some fucking support.

Shit. Look at me, I’m a happy kid. Not a fear in the world. I’ll look anyone down straight in the face.

really need to start thinking about my Honors English presentation on Sylvia Plath. I’m royally screwed if I can’t pull this one of correctly. I don’t want to put it off until the last moment, but it’s a little too late for that. I need to figure out what to do with this presentation, and what I need to do in order to make it shine. This is what’s important to me.

I’ve got to study for the French vocabulary quiz that I’ve got coming up tomorrow. I can’t believe that it’s already Friday again. It’s really nice to have some time to sit around and do nothing. Just for a while. I’ve got to do well on this, I’ve got to do well on that, I need to make something useful out of myself. Haha. I think I’ve got the potential to do whatever in hell I’d like to do. I just need a sense of direction, and the problem is I keep losing it.

“Separate we are one…”

Attended another MUN meeting and got my assignment for THIMUN. I’ll be presenting Italy in Committee 1, Disarament and International Security. Hey hey, I’m really looking forward to this conference. See? Something to look forward to.

And I’ve got that break coming up soon. After that, I’m off to THIMUN. Wow wow. There’s almost no time.

Doing Swimming this quarter and so, I’m on the Swim Team with absolutely no experience. I can drag myself along, my legs are dead weights and are absolutely useless. I can’t propel myself with them properly and they get tired so quickly. And that’s why I have to keep swimming and keep training and keep on working everyday until I know what I’m doing.

Look look. 我爱李向贞. Someday things will work. Or it’ll all be the same. And hell, I want the former.

I’m Mr. Brightside.

9:24PM Edit:

Well, it’s really time just to throw in the towel, isn’t it? I’ve been trying so damn hard all this time, I’ve been spilling things out. And I don’t think it’s going to help. I’m going to start working hard from now on. No more bullshit. I’m not going to slip and fall behind. 李向贞, I honestly think I loved you. Haha. It’s a strong word, that. Good luck with your grades. Cheers. (beer mug) To something better in the damn future, when school no longer matters.

MSN Emoticon cheatsheet.

I’m feeling: Confused
Listening to: Goldfinger – Vintage Queen

Shtuffffff.

I made THIMUN. Jay, Matt, and I are going. Hell yeah. I’ll make sure to have fun and meet up with old International School of Beijing friends. I know that Naiqu, Woo Chan, Jeff Tai, Robert Xie will be going to THIMUN Singapore. Sweeeeet. I’m really looking forward to the conference. 5 days including bus travel time. I hate buses, but YAY.

I stayed after school today, went to swim practice. I’m not sure if I’m going to stay on the team. I need to get my CAS hours, but it’s rather grueling. Maybe I’ll get used to it with time. Right now, I sure as hell am not enjoying it. It’s crazy crazy stuff. I don’t even understand what’s expected of me for the most part. Woohoo?

I got a call from Mediaplex today. My Sennheiser HD212 Pro headphones are here and ready to be picked up from the shop 🙂 They’re telling me to go whenever I feel like it, so I’ll head over to KLCC on Sunday and get my new headphones. Another RM110 and I’ll be using them. It’s about time.

I got home at 7:20PM today. I can’t even begin to think about how much time I’ve wasted in transportation. It’s pathetic. I’ve complained, I’ve brought up my case to the bussing company, and they’re not going to do anything about it. Nothing’s going to change about this situation.

And..What else? Yeah yeah. I’ll give more time to this.

I’ve got two pictures of Alix. Keke.

Listening to: Audioslave – Your Time Has Come

New hardware.

Ate dim sun this morning at 大同. I still have homework left to do, and I’m getting to work on it. Got that IBHL Math Portfolio practice and some French to work on. Dear God, I have French tomorrow and I haven’t started yet. Damn my planning.

Food was good. I came back home with my mom and Justin while my dad went off to Lowyat Plaza to purchase some stuff. Our house got hit by lightning again in yesterday’s storm. I was using my computer at the time and I was scared that the LAN ports on this machine may have been damaged. Thankfully, the LAN ports on both the Dell and OCEANBLUe weren’t killed. However, Telekom Malaysia’s modem got killed, as well as our router. It’s FUBAR. The WAN port got killed so we can’t connect to the internet with it, and 3 out of 4 LAN ports are useless.

Dinner.

6:51PM:

So I got back home, worked on the Math Analysis portfolio a bit. I’ve gotten the majority of it done now. Just a little more to work on and I’m finished. I still don’t understand one of the points, though. Ahhhhh. I’m afraid of Math Analysis. I can survive it, I’m sure.

Dad got back later on with a new Canon laser printer and a new router. Yay. Got everything set up and it’s all good 🙂 Now we’re working with a Linksys WRT54GS and a Canon Lasershot LBP2900. It’s good to have finally gotten rid of the old inkjet. Now I can print out school stuff at home 🙂 It’s fast, it’s not absolutely massive, woohoo.

李小姐 is back from Bali. Yay yay yay. I’ve got that long break to look forward to that’s coming up at the end of this month. And I’ve got to pray that I made THIMUN.

Which reminds me – Mini MUN was pretty fun stuff. I have to get over that shaky, fluttery sensation I get when I step up to talk. And I have to prepare some speeches in advance. I wrote up 3 speeches for resolutions while in the conference and got to speak on 2 out of 4 of the resolutions..The other 2, I was too low on the list and we were out of time. Bah. I didn’t get to present my speech in support of Israel’s Security Fence, but the resolution got slaughtered anyways. Nt.

Sweetie hasn’t been washed and she’s starting to smell stale.

My hair is short now.

我爱李向贞, 我爱李向贞, 我爱李向贞.

I wonder..

I’m feeling: Happy
Listening to: Goo Goo Dolls – Here Is Gone

Mini MUN, GTA:SA

I just got back from the Mini MUN conference at ISKL. I arrived there a little late, before 4PM. It turns out that Mr. Bisset wanted us to arrive at around 3PM so we could have time to get organized and brush up a bit. Whoops~ I must have forgotten all about that. I’ll have to go tomorrow morning at 9:15AM to finalize a resolution with some other delegates.

My first MUN conference thus far, and I enjoyed it. It’ll continue on until tomorrow, when we’ll debate the resolutions that have been submitted. I’m going to work on a speech tonight to support a resolution regarding the Political committee. I’ve got to make THIMUN!

I thought I wore “smart” enough clothing today. I borrowed from my dad because I didn’t buy anything the least bit formal while I was in the States. I’m going to have to buy some of my own clothing for THIMUN, provided that I make it. I’ll buy here I think..I’ll need to get some slacks, a jacket, dress shirt, and dress shoes. The chair told me that it was a good idea to get a tie and a jacket for tomorrow. Will do.

Finished downloading Grand Theft Auto San Andreas. It’s the Hoodlum release, a massive file. Took about 36 hours to download 😡

Dinner, I’ll be back to finish this up.

8:18PM Edit:

Working on resolutions right now so I can do well. I should have done more research on my topics earlier, but I guess I can still work on it for a while.

I started working on my the IB Portfolio practice that we were given for Math Analysis. I got through a few steps and now I’m utterly lost. I really have to get this done as it’s due on Tuesday, and I barely even touched it. Damn damn damn. If it was a little less confusing. I’ll work with someone on the parts that I don’t understand ASAP.

Let’s see. I haven’t done anything constructive lately. I am, however, reading Freakonomics. It’s an interesting read and I enjoy it. Mmmmmmm.  Freakonomics.

Reinstalled UT2K3 on both computers, can play LAN games and it’s good fun. Nothing else to say right now, and I’ve got work to attend to. And a movie to watch with the family. My TV kicks ass.

我爱李向贞.

I’m feeling: Excited
Listening to: The Killers – Mr. Brightside