THIMUN, Swimming.

I’m so lost right now. I don’t know what’s gotten into me because I was pretty damn sure I knew what I wanted to do just earlier. What in hell keeps happening to me? I’m so full of thoughts and I yet, I can’t think straight. I need some fucking support.

Shit. Look at me, I’m a happy kid. Not a fear in the world. I’ll look anyone down straight in the face.

really need to start thinking about my Honors English presentation on Sylvia Plath. I’m royally screwed if I can’t pull this one of correctly. I don’t want to put it off until the last moment, but it’s a little too late for that. I need to figure out what to do with this presentation, and what I need to do in order to make it shine. This is what’s important to me.

I’ve got to study for the French vocabulary quiz that I’ve got coming up tomorrow. I can’t believe that it’s already Friday again. It’s really nice to have some time to sit around and do nothing. Just for a while. I’ve got to do well on this, I’ve got to do well on that, I need to make something useful out of myself. Haha. I think I’ve got the potential to do whatever in hell I’d like to do. I just need a sense of direction, and the problem is I keep losing it.

“Separate we are one…”

Attended another MUN meeting and got my assignment for THIMUN. I’ll be presenting Italy in Committee 1, Disarament and International Security. Hey hey, I’m really looking forward to this conference. See? Something to look forward to.

And I’ve got that break coming up soon. After that, I’m off to THIMUN. Wow wow. There’s almost no time.

Doing Swimming this quarter and so, I’m on the Swim Team with absolutely no experience. I can drag myself along, my legs are dead weights and are absolutely useless. I can’t propel myself with them properly and they get tired so quickly. And that’s why I have to keep swimming and keep training and keep on working everyday until I know what I’m doing.

Look look. 我爱李向贞. Someday things will work. Or it’ll all be the same. And hell, I want the former.

I’m Mr. Brightside.

9:24PM Edit:

Well, it’s really time just to throw in the towel, isn’t it? I’ve been trying so damn hard all this time, I’ve been spilling things out. And I don’t think it’s going to help. I’m going to start working hard from now on. No more bullshit. I’m not going to slip and fall behind. 李向贞, I honestly think I loved you. Haha. It’s a strong word, that. Good luck with your grades. Cheers. (beer mug) To something better in the damn future, when school no longer matters.

MSN Emoticon cheatsheet.

I’m feeling: Confused
Listening to: Goldfinger – Vintage Queen