down, down, down.

I’ve certainly felt better, but it’s probably best for me.

I’m going out for some dim sun later at 大同。 That’ll cheer me up real quick. Jeff Zhao tells me that a Sony Ericsson K750i in Beijing can be purchased for 2599 人民币。 Very cheap – looking at $317 USD versus the RM 1799 pricetag for the same phone over here. $317 USD in China vs. $500 USD in Malaysia. Obviously China’s winning out here. I’ve got to pick me up one of those.

I’m going to start living for material goods. I want stability, for fuck’s sake. Don’t give me any of that other bullshit.

Listening to: Aqualung – Strange and Beautiful (I’ll Put A Spell On You)

mmm. life.

Kind of sleepy right now. It’s only 9:20PM, and I’m already feeling tired. No idea what’s caused this, but alright. It’s all good, I’ve got trance music going to my ears. Woohoo~

Let’s see – first of all, I’ve got my grades in school. It’s shockingly close to the end of the first semester. Junior year, I’m supposed to be working my ass constantly and I’m expected to put forth a consistent effort. I know that I’m improving in some classes so my GPA should rise. Right now, I’m far down in class ranking. We’re talking 40th percentile here. That puts me behind some illiterate people. I’m behind mentally retarded kids for fuck’s sake.

Yet people still try and find me for help. Oh dear God, I need to learn to help myself before i can help anyone else. Otherwise I’ll just be throwing all my efforts where they aren’t really needed. So until I can bring myself up to the 10th percentile, where I belong, I’m going to be a hardass. Rawr. You talk to me and I’ll bite your face off. Something like that.

I got an A on a Math Analysis quiz. That made me so damn happy that I burst out laughing. It’s the first A that I’ve gotten all year. I’ll go on to get more, I know I can. I’ve got the drive, guys. That little bit of motivation that’s required to get me up there. I’m Superman.

What’s there to worry about? Not sure right now. I need to get some progress reports from my teachers. And I’ve got to make sure to get the receipt for all my THIMUN Singapore costs. My dad asked me to get that in to him at the start of this week and I still haven’t managed to get it. I lost the first receipt that the cashier printed out for me, I’ve got to get a new one.

Okay. Stayed after school today to mess around. I had already made up my mind not to go to swim practice this morning, so I stayed true to my word and avoided the pool all day. I’m sure that the coaches won’t be all that happy, but then again I’m not missing out on much. By going there I think I make a fool of myself. Guess that’s the only way to improve. You have to give to take.

Alix wasn’t in a good mood today. I’m feeling better these days because I like it when things are just peachy. Schoolwork, parents, everything weighs down on us poor little High School students. Damn you, school. I’ll have to endure you for a few more years and then I’m off to kick ass in the real world.

My parents know about her. It’s rather strange. I guess it’s just parental intuition. I thought I was rather discreet about our relationship, but then again there are always those little things. The fact that I’m up late at nights talking to somebody on the phone, the massive phone bill that I’ve racked up with our land line. Oh goodness gracious me. I’ll keep a lid on it a bit. But it’s kind of hard to invite her over without mentioning names.

Dad’s been telling me all about girls. This is great. I’m sure some of the advice will come in handy, but for the most part it’s been the same lesson over and over again. Schoolwork comes first.

Which reminds me. Tomorrow is Friday. YAY! Get into a good mood and things will be great. Nothing to worry about, just have fun kk.

I need to hide the beer that’s still in my bedroom so my mom doesn’t stumble on it when she’s cleaning. It’s only two cans of Carlsberg that I managed to sneak back to Kuala Lumpur from my THIMUN Singapore trip. Should have downed them earlier, but there was no special occasion. Besides, my parents are always at home.

Egads. I’m going to have to find a way to take 李小姐 with me to 上海。 That would kick ass.

Um. Let’s see here. Thanks, Andrew for the mention in your entry.

Things are kinda in a slump lately, actually. People around me are arguing (Alex isn’t, cuz he got Alix back, woohoo!), the price of a fucking 100Plus went up to RM1.50 today, my grades suck, IB is a fucking white-hair-guaranteed programme, and my computers… oh well, let’s just say E17 looks awesome, but there’s only so much part of a computer interface can do to brighten up your entire life.

w00t w00t.

Left my backpack in the library, it’s locked up there. I was making a mad dash, looking for someone who could help me retrieve the bag. Thank God for the ‘efficiency’ here. Couldn’t find the Maintenance people in their office. Fk.

I followed some of Robert X’s advice. I think I did 6 sets, 10 reps, 4KG lifts to strengthen my biceps. They’re sore now so I guess it worked. I need to get myself some more weights. I’ve got these wimpy-ass 2KG ones and the only way that I can get anything out of it is by holding the two dumbbells in one hand. Will have to start doing situps again, too. And more pushups. Instead of going for a high number of pushups in one go, I’ve got to start doing them in sets.

Bye bye.

我爱你,李向贞~ 明天见 ^^

12:27AM Edit:

Man. Chatted with Bryan Niu a bit. BJ is getting cold, he’s been working out in an attempt to get buff. Heard that Kelvin saw the pictures, said that they were Photoshopped. Another one for the “Photoshop” bastards. Take that, bitch.

I’m feeling: Excited
Listening to: DOUBLESTAR PROJECT – Ocean Blue (REMIX)

you are my everything.

To note, I’m not unhappy so don’t misinterpret this. For the love of God.

*.::~a L i x L~::.* says: so.. youll blog something out?
:: az :: [god it’s good to be alive.] says: Yes, just for you.
*.::~a L i x L~::.* says: dammit alex! just blog something out!
*.::~a L i x L~::.* says: “just for me”

So, here you go.

Remember the times that I asked you what I meant to you? The hesitation in your responses, the uncertainty involved time after time again? I was always just something. Not a nobody, but not enough for things to work at the time. It just wasn’t enough.

And all the questions about where I went wrong earlier, or what happened. Something that kept pushing us apart time after time again. The anger over nothing, the mixed feelings. Whatever it was, something had made you just stop caring earlier. I know that the first time, it was nothing. You listened to your friends, let them choose what was right for you. And I hope now that you’re stronger and that you won’t kneel down to what they say. Stand up and face them down.

And now that things are all just peachy again, ‘let’s turn forever, you and me’. I realize that I didn’t do enough for you earlier. I’ve told you before and I’ll tell you again, I’m always happiest when I’m with you.

There’s your little post. I’ll add onto it later because my mom’s been telling me to go upstairs. Call me up and we’ll talk!

<3 wondergirl

November 22nd, 10:05PM Edit:

I can’t be bothered to make a new post. Not right now, this one was just far too short.

Well, we were supposed to talk to the school’s Assistant Principal today but it turned out that he was already engaged in some other activity when it was time for us to have our meeting. I guess that also goes to show how important the “behavior” problems in the library were in the school at large.

Went up with Alix to the library and asked the librarian what had happened to our scheduled meeting. She informed us that the Assistant Principal was busy and so, we could finish up anything that we had to talk about right then and there. Excellent. It’s a lot easier to deal with adults when they’re sitting down and they have to look up to you to talk. Haha~

She pointed out that any arguments should be carried out in a quiet manner or should be taken outside of the library in order to maintain a peaceful environment for studying and whatnot. Okay, no problem. And then she said that we were to treat her and all library staff with all due respect. Once again, not an issue because I’ve been doing that. The only thing is that they don’t seem to understand my sense of humor. God. Don’t take things so seriously. I’m just cynical like that.

Librarian finished telling us what she expected out of us, and then she stared at Alix and told her, “You’re looking at me like I’m insane. You did understand what I just said, right?”. I felt fit to burst with laughter. Keep a straight face and nod your head a lot. That always works.

Don’t try to get yourself into anymore trouble, you nut I don’t want to have to back you up with some story when a teacher figures out that you’ve been skipping class. And Friday~~ ^^ Today was good. Oh-so-thrilling.